A lot of times I write about thoughts that occur to me while on the run, but a lot of 'bloggers' are more personal writing about themselves, their experiences and so on. I did a little of that in the beginning but as in everyday life there's only so many times you can repeat something so that even if you're telling different folks you get sick of it. Well, that's how I felt about my knee. I was frustrated because I couldn't run without pain,so I didn't run. Well let me tell you one thing mister, not running at all was even more painful so I just sort of grinned (figuratively speaking) and beared it (bore it? whatever...) and soldiered on. I got so that I didn't run at my usual times in my usual places because people would ask (and I am immensely grateful for their kindness and thoughtfulness, really - I WAS THE ONE WITH THE PROBLEM) and I just got tired of saying, a) it's about the same or someone 'new' would say, b)"oh, what's wrong with it/what did you do.....*sigh* anyway I have no idea what has happened in the last 10 days (well, privately I do), but it's a miracle! My knee has improved dramaticaly just recently and only now rarely twinges, and compared to the pain I was in, it's barely worth mentioning.
I'm going through all this because Saturday December 8 I will be running in my first marathon since last December 10. To some that's not a big deal, but I usually run 2 -4 a year; and I must confess I'm a little apprehensive about the Atlanta Half Marathon and Memphis Half too. Man, I used to do half marathons for snacks! Anyway, goals....I usually go into every marathon with 3 goals 1) Best Case - a time I think I'm capable of if Jupiter aligns with Mars and all systems are 'Go!'. 2) a more realistic goal time-wise, that I really should be able to do; and 3) finish and get the medal. Any of those 3 are worthy accomplishments and it's very common, too common in fact for the runners I coach (New Runners in my 'Couch' program including recent graduates, or runners I coach individually) to come to me before their first race of a distance and say, "Well I hope to do it in XXX time." I have a young lady who'll run her first half Marathon next weekend tell me her time goal. My suggestion was simple,"Shouldn't your goal be to finish?" I mean to finish a half marathon (13.1 miles) is a great achievement for 99% of the population and if for whatever reason she doesn't hit her 'time goal' there will be some disappointment. Why? why not enjoy the entire event and if it's a bad day, and we all have them and she doesn't finish or doesn't finish well - why set yourself up for failure?
I have no idea how long it will take me to run Charlotte, but I do know what my goal is: to be grateful for every step, even the ones that may in the last miles hurt. I had something that I love very much (recreationaly), my -pain free- running, taken away from me for a while and now I've got it back. I'm not in the 'running shape' I was in, I can't run 5K's, 10K's, or any distance as fast as I was (though I hope to change that - one step at a time, though); but I am running pain free and my goal for Charlotte? A simple goal really; enjoy running pain free. It sounds easy, but if you're a runner have you tried to just go out and enjoy running recently? No time, no distance, not really 'training' - hh and by the way, the leaves are gorgeous right now aren't they? I love running through the neighborhoods and looking at the trees.
In Chariots of Fire Eric Liddell (a real person by the way) said of his faith and ability to run (and this quote as pertains in the movie on whether or not to run a certain 'race') said, "I believe God made me for a purpose, but He also made me fast. And when I run I feel His pleasure."
Well, I'm not fast, but sometimes I swear I can feel His pleasure when I run, and I know I'm going to feel it in Charlotte.